MEGHAN Markle has revealed how her teens and 20s were a “brutal” experience where she struggled to be “happy” and “fit in”.
The Duchess of Sussex, 39, admitted that as a young woman she was in a “constant battle”, which saw her “judge” herself on her weight, didn’t have anyone to eat lunch with at school, and aged 24 was told by a casting director to wear less make-up.
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Meghan Markle revealed that her teens and 20s were a “brutal” time where she struggled to be happyCredit: Getty – Contributor
On her 33rd birthday back in August 2014, on her now-defunct lifestyle blog The Tig, the former actress – wrote that she had finally found happiness, but that it had taken a while to get there.
She revealed: “My 20s were brutal – a constant battle with myself, judging my weight, my style, my desire to be as cool/as hip/as smart/as “whatever” as everyone else.
“My teens were even worse – grappling with how to fit in, and what that even meant. My high school had cliques: the black girls and white girls, the Filipino and the Latina girls.
“Being biracial, I fell somewhere in between. So everyday during lunch, I busied myself with meetings – French club, student body, whatever one could possibly do between noon and 1pm- I was there.
In a post on The Tig on her 33rd birthday (pictured here months after) she said she would constantly “judge” her own weightCredit: Getty Images – Getty
“Not so that I was more involved, but so that I wouldn’t have to eat alone.”
Meghan also gave an insight into her lack of confidence when an auditioning actress before she joined the cast of Suits.
In the same post, she wrote: “I must have been about 24 when a casting director looked at me during an audition and said ‘You need to know that you’re enough. Less makeup, more Meghan.'”
The future Duchess signed off the blog – penned two years before she met Prince Harry – with: “I want you to find your happiness. I did. And it’s never felt so good.”
When she was 24 (the age she is here) she revealed she was told by a casting director wear “less make-up”Credit: Getty – Contributor
In her recent Oprah interview, aired in March, Meghan revealed her battles with mental health before making the decision to step down as senior Royals with husband Prince Harry, 36.
The pregnant mum-of-one explained she was struggling with suicidal thoughts while pregnant with Archie but claimed her attempts to get help from the Palace fell on deaf ears.
Meghan said she didn’t have anyone to each lunch with at school in her teensCredit: James Breeden – The Sun
This week, the Duke of Sussex told Oprah in a new doc, The Me You Can’t See, that what stopped his wife from giving in to suicide was how “unfair” it would be to him after the death of his mum Princess Diana in 1997.
He said: “The thing that stopped her from seeing it through was how unfair it would be on me after everything that had happened to my mum and to now be put in a position of losing another woman in my life, with a baby inside of her, our baby..
“The scariest thing for her was her clarity of thought. She hadn’t ‘lost it.’ … She was completely sane. Yet in the quiet of night, these thoughts woke her up.”
Harry also spoke about trying to get help from his family during this difficult time when his wife was “struggling” while she was pregnant with their son Archie.
He said: “I thought my family would help, but every single ask, request, warning, whatever, it is just got met with total silence, total neglect.”